((OOC: okay, so…I started another blog. A Loki blog. Loki. Of Asgard. And I am burdened with glorious purpose. >.> long story short? Probably going to be a little bit M.I.Avengers for a while. Thought I should let people know.))
((…I am sitting in Wisconsin right now. I flew from JAPAN to visit my cousin so I could see this movie…and? Totally, completely worth it. Best 2 hours and 22 minutes of my life. I will not spit out spoilers, but talk vaguely. If you don’t want to read this, that’s okay, but I NEEDED TO GET THIS OUT THERE.
…Things happen in this movie. Things. Things that…May make people hate Loki, but not me. I see them, and I hate what he did…But I still freaking love him. In the first like…third of the movie, he ends up having a conversation with Thor, and you can still see the woobie in there. He’s bitter, and twisted, and he’s been angry so long that he’s forgotten a big part of who he was, but it’s still there. They’re talking, and…You can see he is still clinging to issues from their movie, but the time between then and now has twisted the memory to something other than what it really was.
He is so angry, all the time, he puts himself in a position where he -must- get the cosmic cube. He is actually REQUIRED to do so. He starts off looking quite sickly, actually, and I think it has something to do with that. I feel like he is lost, but not beyond saving. I know that people are going to think that’s just fan-sentiment, but…I don’t think it is. I’ve spent a lot of time dissecting his mental state from THOR, and I think he’s still there. He’s hurt from what he considers a betrayal from Odin, angry at Thor for ruining his chance to make Odin proud, and it’s been festering for two years in a constant way.
Can you imagine that? Two. Years. Of nothing but being angry. Not general anger, not frustration, not a kind of anger the average person can understand: The kind of anger where you can think of nothing else. You go to sleep thinking about it. You wake up thinking about it. The kind of rage most people only feel immediately after the wrong, the kind of anger that people actively describe as “seeing red”. Thinking only of how you can punish the one who wronged you. It’s like a fire that instead of going to a quiet smolder flares up again and again and again, until it’s in a constant state of out of control burn. Two. Full. Years. That….would make anyone do some really terrible things.
There are…two or three really distinct moments where Loki does things that you think “ohgodhowcouldhedothat?!”…They’re bad. Really, really bad. I still see him as someone who can be saved, but not until someone finds a way to put out the damn flames.
I think part of the problem lies with the fact he is still laboring under the impression that he is a monster, so he might as well go with it. He wants to live up to the name. If he can’t be the perfect son that Odin would love, cherish, and be happy to call one of his children, which,obviously,he couldn’t possibly be about a Frost Giant runt…Then he’s going to be the perfect villain, and make the allfather and his brother suffer.
He knows he’s doing things wrong - But I think he’s beyond caring. Not that he doesn’t care, but that he’s in so deep he can’t stop. He needs to do the things he does, because he needs to make Thor suffer like he needs to breathe. He’s completely willing to do himself harm, to make deals that risk his life in every sense of it, if he can reach that goal.
Loki says he wants to rule, but…I think he’s just using that as justification. He said in THOR that he never wanted to rule…Now he says he deserves to, and wants to, and is a ruler. I think that might be from the fact that he knows what he did in THOR was wrong too, and he needs to continue justifying it to himself…and that’s what came out.
I still love him. Always will. He’s off his rocker now - completely rage driven, and actually deluding himself with regards to certain events…But I do not think he’s beyond saving.
NOW THE MOVIE OVER ALL.
Holllyyyyyy shit. It was glorious. It was like…Like thinking you were going to get a drawing, and being very happy with it. Being content. Being pleased…and then someone hands you the Mona Lisa and is like “Kies. You enjoy that now.” It. Is. BEAUTIFUL!
Loki takes more than a few hits in this movie, and I still fucking loved it. Tony was…witty, brilliant, funny, and of course sneaky. He’s Tony. That’s…it’s what he does. His tech is amazing, as usual, and it makes me so happy to see that he is as much Tony as ever.
Cap? Ohhh good god. I love him. He’s so 40’s, and it’s just WONDERFUL. He seems a lot angrier than he was in Captain America, but…I think given circumstances, that’s justified. Everyone he knew and loved is probably dead, or if not? like 90. Peggy may or may not be dead - probably is. The Howling Commandos are more than like long dead. Howard is gone, for certain, and he is stuck looking at the modern version of his friend, his son, who seems exactly the same but completely different. Tony isn’t Howard - But he is enough like him to make the fact that Howard is dead hurt all the more. I saw those two as friends, particularly after the “Fondue is just cheese and bread my friend” scene. Before that, it was a little antagonistic, but in the end, they were friends.
The Hulk? I have never given two fucks about the green galoot. Until now. Holy shit, Bruce Banner I now love you. The spin this movie puts on him…I know if he had a movie of his own, THIS HULK, not either of the other two, I think it would be fantastic. He was clever, and funny, and juuuust hesitant enough, with an undertone of cynic. It was epic.
Hawkeye I liked. When he really started doing things in the movie, it was amazing. The first bit he didn’t do much, but there was a cute thing where he has like….a lofted spot that he hangs out and people call it his nest. It made me laugh, and he looks like an 8-year old with a tree fort. It was super adorable.
Black Widow…I’m a litttle uncertain on. She did a great job, and was totally badass in more than one moment, but she gets a little…I’m not sure the word for it, but…Sort of not herself at times. Not like out of character, but just…The world has gone slightly sideways for her, and she is having problems with that. I like her well enough, but compared to the others I think she was sort of meh.
Thor. He was…Very Thor. He reacted to seeing Loki again exactly how I thought he would. He wanted so very, very badly to make it better…But at this point in time, I don’t think he is the one who can help Loki. I think it would take MONTHS of Loki being in one place, locked up, but treated relatively kindly (he did kind of try to commit genocide…) and Thor coming daily to just wait it out, and try to talk to his brother…But despite his time on Earth? Thor is a fix-it-now kind of guy, and he doesn’t see the fact that is what its going to take. Then again, there are no therapists in Asgard, so….he’s got no basis to think of that. However, I would like to note that he makes a point of saying he does still think of Loki as his brother, and that Loki -is- still family…Even if he’s swimmin’ in the deep end at the moment.
I enjoyed Nick Fury very much. He was very cool, very collected, and very sharp on the wit, plus…Well, he deals with Loki well - pretty much retort for retort. That’s saying something.
Coulson is amazing in this. He is such a fanboy, I could barely stand it. I was laughing because he was just…so….gah, he’s one of us, and we all know it now.
Long story short? I started watching the movie 11 hours ago….And I already want to see it again. Like…Right now. I’m freaking out. So if anyone wants to discuss it with me, holy hell, please do so. I want to talk to you. I want to rant and rave and say things that are all spoilerie and gwrarahrara!!! >.> I’ll stop now.
…Right. So usually I would apologize for going out of character on a RP blog. But what do we say to that? Not today. Not today.))
